And I guess I am being very hypocritical by typing all of this, because hi, you are reading my blog. One that I started for the simple purpose of expressing myself (i.e. preventing the need to be put in jail) when I feel like smothering the next thing that requires me to change it's butt. And I read blogs regularly. Well, I read two blogs regularly. But I don't want that to be enough for me. I struggle with all of the problems that I listed at the beginning of this. But I don't want a band-aid type fix. I want to connect with people on a very personal basis. I want to be able to claim a few friends again.
A couple of weeks ago a friend of ours from Reno that just got stationed at Fort Hood called and asked if I could give him a ride from the airport here out to the base. I, of course, said that I could, but round trip it took about 3 1/2 hours. And he didn't land here until just after 10 pm. After I had made the plans I thought about how it might actually be fun, but I was heart broken when I realized that there was no one here that I could call up to make the trip with me. A few years ago there would have been a number of people that I could have called and the trip would have been a blast. Good conversation, loud music and junk food. But I don't have those kind of friends anymore. No one that I could say would be an unconditional friend. I don't even feel like there is anyone I can call at anytime when I need to talk. Please don't get me wrong here, my husband is an amazing listener. He is my best friend, and I can talk to him about almost anything. But that is not the only relationship that I need in my life. I want to be rich in friends. I want there to be people in my life again that are close enough to just show up at my house, unannounced, and then help themselves to my fridge. I want to feel like there is somewhere that I would be welcomed to do the same. I just don't know where to find them. Let me know if you here of a place that has them on sale.
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