Once again..

Goodness gracious, what a drama queen I am. I just read my last post, and I have to admit that with all the whining I was doing I don't even remember what was wrong. Next time I write something like that I hope someone slaps me.

Life has changed quite a bit since last fall. I have a daughter. Surprise! Well, anybody that actually reads this wont be surprised, but if anyone ever comes and reads this straight through, well than... Surprise!

Now... on to some house cleaning... I do, constantly, feel drawn to create with the written word. I love writing, would even like to write a novel one day, but I do not think this blog is the way for me to express myself creatively. I think that I may have failed at blogging so terribly because I have been looking to it to be my creative outlet. I don't have enough confidence in my writing to truly put out into the black hole of the internet what I really want to write. So, in saying all that I am changing how I look at this web page. So welcome to an online update of our life. That's it. If you aren't interested in what happens in our life, go some place else to find your entertainment. I will be your monkey no longer!

Today is March 28th. I am sitting on our back porch in almost 80

degree weather while Don-e mows our lawn. Both of my children are napping. (Miraculous, I know) This morning we went with Don, Michelle and Christian to a park where we m

et some friends for a community Easter egg hunt. Elijah and Thaelon, our friends kid, were super cute with their baskets. Typical boys they spent the

entire time before the hunt hitting each other with them.

Now, to introduce you to Bridgett Nicole Harris. This picture is from the day we brought her home from the hospital. She was born on March 2nd, 2010. Which makes her birthday 3-2-10. Only the smart people will figure out why that is awesome.

This picture is from yesterday. Maybe the day before. I don't remember. Some days are a little hazy as we don't always get a lot of sleep!

She is, in most ways an amazing baby. She still has her days and nights mixed up a little bit, but as she isn't even 4 weeks old yet I suppose I should cut her some slack. She eats good, and poops good and really I shouldn't complain about the sleeping thing because she already is getting much better at it. And, she sleeps like a champ during the day!

I do have to say that having two kids is a lot of work. Way more than double the work of one. But I love it. Elijah is amazing with her already and while we have had a few little issues, he loves her. He even calls her HIS baby. Seeing Don-e cradle our little girl in his arms is one of the sweetest experiences of my life. I have to say, with almost no bias, that our little family is pretty much perfect.

Memories

Lately I have been compelled to get back on here and start writing again. Life and sickness have prevented it, but I've really been wanting to push myself into pulling something out of myself creatively, for me. I'm sadden to admit that when I sit down to think about what I want to say I find that it is nothing. Life right now is so so hard for us and I am falling victim to the despair of it all. I don't want to look back on this time and remember. I don't want to even acknowledge it now. And that is so so sad to me because I should be feeling so much joy. I'm not saying that nothing should be wrong for me, and that my life should be perfect, but rather I should be better about focusing on the joy that is in this life, not the hardship. I am pregnant with a much loved and fought for baby. My husband is alive and in good health. My son is healthy and growing and becoming an amazing little person. I got to eat dinner tonight until I was full and will get to lay my head down on a pillow in a warm and dry house. I am blessed. I just need to remember it.

Sweet sweet music

One of the best sounds I have ever heard is the conversation taking place between my husband and my son, right now, in our hall bathroom. It is so amazing to get to know my son through the words he choses to use. The thoughts he has to express to us. I am supremely blessed to have this life.

Please Hold...

Yeah, so I know, I'm a slacker. Life has been hectic, so you gotta cut me some slack. Don-e's heart has been acting up, and I will be done working at this job in less than four days and I just don't have to time, or mental space available to write right now. Will get back to it next week to give more details about what is going on.

For now I leave you with a picture of a sleeping baby from yesterday afternoon.

Secrets. But not about the Garden.

I have a confession.

See, almost all of the pictures that I post on here are taken with my iphone. Most of the pictures that you see are ones that I take with the specific purpose of posting them here, and doing so with my iphone is really convenient. From my phone I can email them to my computer for uploading as opposed to having to download my camera every day or so. Plus, the camera that we have is several years old, and not the greatest thing to begin with.

For right now this is a pretty good system.

But really, deep down, if I could have my way......
I really really want a good camera. Something that gives me more control over the speed and aperture and focus. Something that I can put different types of lenses on to achieve different types of effects.
Something like this...
Something that would allow me to create art, not just take a picture.
I know I have no where close to my husband's creative ability. Not even a fraction of a fraction. But sometimes I see something, and it creates a snapshot in my mind, something that I know could be beautifully capture and enjoyed for more than just the moment that it occurs. And it makes me want to create.
Someday, because this isn't something that just popped into my mind in the last month or two, I will be able to put aside the money to pursue this hobby. But for now we both have to be satisfied with shots like this.

But I guess it really isn't that much of a hardship, is it?